Emotionally it has been a bit of a rollercoaster over the last few weeks. This time of year always brings out the misery in people as well as the happiness. Sometimes I forget that Christmas isn't always about presents, celebration, family. It is also about loneliness and the realisation that another year has passed and nothing has changed.
Living with someone who suffers severely from depression is a constant reminder that some people can see the good in things and some people just can't, no matter how hard they try. It's easy to pretend. I do it sometimes. Plaster a smile on my face and walk around pretending that nothing is hurting and everything is exactly as I would wish it to be but its a lie and sometimes constantly lying becomes impossible. Depression is like living a lie. If you fight it hard enough then you can convince yourself that you are getting through it but then one knock back and it feels as if you are back to square one. It is like living with an addiction, you can fall back into it at any time so you are never really cured you are just surviving. Survivors can enjoy life as much, if not more than everyone else and that is something that we all need to hang onto.
Let's spare a thought for the people who are suffering this Christmas. Whatever that suffering may be let's all just send up a silent prayer that things are better in 2011 for whoever needs them to be.
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