I'm Back

Okay so I've been absent for quiet some time. The reason behind this is twofold. Firstly I had submitted my novel Tattooing Angels to an Agent and was waiting for feedback which makes me impatient, lazy and seriously silent. Secondly, I had my novel back but with suggested rewrites and so I've been changing my entire story around because Agents tend to know what they're talking about and you have to be able to take criticism in the writing game.

Rewrites are hard mainly because in the first instant you resist all criticism no matter how helpful. She scream and tant and tell yourself they are completely wrong and you don't know how they could be so blind. Then you read their comments again, you think you can never possibly deliver what they want because it wasn't your vision and now you're flummoxed (I love that word). Finally you accept that you can do the rewrites but you're going to need to basically start from scratch.

Tattooing Angels started off as an idea, it grew into something but it wasn't quite sure what. I debated where the massive hole was in it, this thing that was missing but that I couldn't quite put my finger on. Finally I realised that the missing thing was the real point to my whole novel. The story wasn't there and I needed to find it. I HAVE FOUND IT but then the ending went missing.

The ending had to be dramatic. It had to be climatic and capable of reducing my intended reader to tears. At first it kind of fell flat so I rewrote it. Then it fell flat again so I deleted it and sobbed. Then it sucked a bit. Now it's kind of, almost, not completely but someday there.

SO if I go quiet again its because I'm working out the various cracks and flaws in the novel that I love. Writing has to be about love doesn't it. If you don't love your book then why should anyone-else.